So much for that Masters helping me with job security.

I'm trying to get my homework done for GED 691. She assigned 70 pages of reading in addition to working on our thesis, and frankly, it's a bit much. I've got a pretty nasty headache today, and standing up is something I'm going to need to avoid for the rest of the day. Thank goodness for the adjustable bed. I'm actually able to work on my laptop while supported enough to be comfortable.

I'm scared about next year. The numbers for the education budget for next year are really, really bleak. I'm nervous about getting laid off, and I don't think I'm going to get moved up. Even though my admin credential is done and my Masters will be done this summer, I'm not really going to be in suitable condition for job hunting over the summer. That was my contingency plan when I started my Masters 2 years ago; if I got laid off, I could find work as an Assistant Principal somewhere.

Complicating the matter is the fact that keeping my current insurance is now a life-or-death matter.

I'm completely freaked that I'm going to get laid off in July and not be able to afford my mortgage, let alone my COBRA payment. If that happens, I won't get adequate post op care (let alone the corrective surgeries that 25-30% of patients need.) I'm scared I'm going to lose my job, lose my insurance, lose my house, develop hydrocephalus, get meningitis, and die.

Scared enough that it makes me cry when I think about it and keeps me up at night.